Hayley Jane

You’ve Got a Friend in Me.

Hayley — Tue, 17 May 2011 21:17:10 +0000

It has probably been at least a year since I have written on here. I’m quite positive that no one still checks this. If you do, than thank you for still having faith in me and my writing. Even if no one see’s this I still feel the need to write on here today. I’ve had this blog since I was a sophomore in high school. Through the years I have poured my heart and soul out on to its virtual pages. Anyone who’s read it would know the deepest inner workings of my mind. Why on Earth I would ever want to make that public I have no idea.

This weekend was probably the worst weekend I have ever experienced. Yet, I came out of it so hopeful and found myself once again inspired. This weekend some of my friendships were tested to the very core. I’m not sure most friendships would have lasted through it to come out unshaken, let alone even stronger.

“You don’t appreciate what you have until its gone.” It wasn’t until God almost took everything away that I realized how true that statement is. While I would like to say from that point on everything was happy go lucky. That we all sat around a fire singing Quimbaya. The truth is, things still declined from there. Many tears were shed in the process and many moments we all felt hopeless. Somewhere in the wake of that hopelessness I looked around and saw how all of us had pulled together as a team. I had never felt so blessed. Little acts of kindness became huge in my eyes; A simple joke, a friendly smile, a long hug. Things that normally seem so small, were suddenly crucial for my heart this weekend.

I have taken so much for granted. Focused on all of the things I didn’t have instead of all the things I did have. I may not have an ipod, or the best camera in the world. What I do have is so much more valuable. Friends that wouldn’t want to be anywhere else if I needed them. I have been blessed abundantly.

And that…. that’s life.

Hayley — Sun, 18 Apr 2010 04:10:39 +0000

I am a dreamer, I am an optimisitc, I seek, no crave adventure, I am impulsive, I am nieve and smart all in the same breath, I am easily inspired. Life inspires me. I think with my heart plain and simple. It is difficult for me to explain to people why I am the way I am. I am all over the place. Easily distracted and constantly motivated. A song can give me that intense feeling of adrenalin surging through my viens ready to burst. My journey is ever changing and never clear. Constantly being takin by surprise. Life is a crazy, roller coaster of corkscrews, hills and drops. Its what you learn from an experience that changes you.

Some people tell me they are never inpired. How can that be? I am inspired so easily by the little things that it is difficult for me to picture someone never being inspired. I live to love. I am nieve in that sence. I see people for the best of them. It has been something that has lead me to be dissapointed or hurt many times. Still I can’t help but to believe we all have good in us. We all just need someone to believe in us and show us our potential and help us reach our goals. We choose where our lives take us. Whether we own up to that fact or not. You live and you learn, you love and you cry. Make the most out of what you’re givin. Only you can make your dreams come true.

Hayley Jane Band Photographer????…….

Hayley — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 18:40:19 +0000

Music blairing so loud that even with ear plugs you can’t hear yourself think, lights flashing every different color of the rainbow, bodies moving in every direction. You get rammed, jammed, shoved and pushed. All while fighting for the one shot that sometimes you just miss. Having to move quickly and roll with the punches trying to predict the unpredictable. Yes, I love shooting shows. Its exhilerating and I feel blessed to be able to capture the passion of the moment that is music. I NEVER thought my work would go in the band direction but as soon as it did I loved every moment of it. From shows to promos it is by far my favorite thing to capture through my lense.

I caught myself calling myself a band photographer the other day. I immediately regretted it. Although I enjoy it, there are so many other things I love in photography. I do not want to hold myself to just one thing. While weddings are the hardest I LOVE the way they come out because you can try your best at capturing real love on film. While I strive and dream of someday hitting the road and going on tour as a tour photographer there is so much more to do. So Hayley Jane Band Photography??????? I don’t know about that one.

Heres to dreams.

Hayley — Fri, 05 Mar 2010 19:40:59 +0000

I am begining to realize that sometimes you need to make your own dreams come true. We all sit around expecting life to happen to us. Later when we look back at all the time we wasted waiting for people to dilver our dreams on a silver platter. Life doesn’t always work like that though. If you wanted something to happen than you have to fight for it. Be aggressive and go after it. If I hadn’t gotten aggressive with my photography and put myself out there I wouldnt be the photog I am today. So hears to making dreams come true.

Recently shot a band heres one of my favorite shots from it.

The Little things.

Hayley — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 07:10:24 +0000

It’s in the little things… Oh how often we hear this simple saying. I feel I have never fully understould it until now. Yes, I knew what it meant and I thought I practiced it. How far off I was… It wasn’t until this evening coming home from a wonderful night spent with an old friend and surrounded by nothing but inspirational musicians did I fully grasp it. My mind and soul had been to busy worrying about whats to happen next. I have focused on the what ifs and the maybe’s but tonight it hit me. I have been to lost and confused to just embrace the little breaks in life. The wonderful things that fill my life with color. Those moments when I have not a worry in the world, not a plan, I am simply living and breathing. It is in these times that we need to look at our lives. The joys we have. What makes you happy? Sure you can think of a whole list of things that tick you off every day but what little things that make that smile creep across your face. For me its the morning sun, the sound of horses eating cozy in their stalls, the warm breath from a soft loving muzzle, people who sing with such passion you can feel it pulsing through the room, the smell of coffee in the morning, meeting up with an old friend, feeling the keys fly smoothly under my fingers, the list goes on. I want to appreciate these things more and live for them. I long for a world where I don’t worry about the tomorrows but simply embrace the todays. I can’t promise anything for the future but right now I am content with just being. FACT: my life is awesome. I couldn’t ask for anything more.

Everything is so clear in the light of the Sun.

Hayley — Tue, 26 Jan 2010 16:49:23 +0000

Sometimes all we need is the light of the day to bring us back to reality. When the first few purple and blue rays hit the dark cold earth filling it with beauty and warmth it calms my soul. Suddenly the previous days worries seem so distant and far. I can’t help believe that this isn’t an accident, that the rising sun was made to bring us hope and fill us with joy. You can watch a million sunsets and state their beauty but never do you not sit in awe of a sunrise. I am not sure whether it is the fact that we so oftenly see sunsets yet most rarely see a sunrise. I Do know that the morning light inspires me. It opens my eyes and restarts my weary heart. Maybe it is because when I see a sunrise I feel the closest to God. It is as though the warm little rays of light that dance across my face are his hands holding my face like a child. There are no words to describe that love.

All to often people go through life feeling small or unimportant. They feel left behind and forgotten. Most times they blame themselves. Why do we let this happen? We see it and watch it and instead of lending out a helping hand we sit and watch thinking about opening a hand but never do. But at some point we all need that hand. For someone to reach out and pick us up. Even if we didn’t fall far or hard we still fall. Are you going to pick that person up, reach out a hand and wrap them in your arms tell them how wonderful they are. We are constantly seeing those logos that say live, laugh, love. Or something to that effect. But I dare to Love, laugh and lift. Maybe that is why I am so frequently thrown down or forgotten, and sometimes I resent myself for being a lifter. Yet, someone has to be there for the broken. Even when I feel a little broken myself at times. I have been called to be a lifter, and that is the roll I will fulfill because I know in my heart that that is where I belong. So today strive to LOVE, LAUGH AND LIFT.

“I see your face in every sunrise,

the colors of the morning are inside your eyes,

the world awakens in the light of the day

I look up to the sky and say…. you beautiful.” – Phil Wickham (beautiful)

May your journey be great.- Hayley Jane

never ending rambling thoughts..

Hayley — Tue, 26 Jan 2010 02:37:18 +0000

I like noise, chaos, distraction, being constantly on my feet and not having a plan just doing. When I plan I fail, and when I endure silence I am left alone with my rambling thoughts for far to long. How I wish we could change ourselves over night. We find our faults and make decisions to fix them, yet we always fall short and slide back to our old ways. Or maybe these faults come because we have lost site of ourselves. Maybe instead of trying to fix these problems we need to stop thinking and stop trying and just DO. I am a very impulsive person, any major decision I’ve made in my life was usually made within a matter of seconds. Like I stated before I don’t like plans. So why am I so persistant on making them??

I try to be honest, and straigh forward. But I hold back far to much. I am not going to pretend like I know it all, I am young there for I am nieve. I try to act like have it all together but who does? Life is about finding out who you are and running with it. People wonder why I blog, why I ramble and why people even read it. To be honest this isn’t for anyone this is souly for myself. To keep myself in check. Is it possible that I was once stronger than I am now? I feel weak lately… though I know deep in my heart that I am strong.

flying by

Hayley — Wed, 20 Jan 2010 03:09:22 +0000

I’m not quite sure how to explain it. In some ways I’m not really sure I ever could. I will try my best to explain to you this part of my heart. I have only been playing the piano for a short time. Yet, it has become one of my safe places. When my fingers move over the keys its as if they are delicately stripping away every other thing in my life. Suddenly my worries seem so distant and far away. As I have stated before I am way to passionate for my own good. Its as if every emotion I feel is intensified. Pulsing through my viens burning up in them and forcing thier way out. At times I love this trait. Than are those moments when I loath it. But when I play my piano the only passion I feel pours out through my fingers I get lost in the melodies. Pounding down or barely fluttering over. Words can not describe this feeling.

I know this is rather random. Was just playin a little ditty and realized how freeing it was.

hope all is well,

Hayley Jane.

It’s about time I start living me life.

Hayley — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 05:53:15 +0000

Wake up

coffee

shower

make music

coffee

edit photos

coffee

hang out with friends

more coffee

I’m getting sick and tired of this same old pointless rutine. I am sooo restless. I wake up every day just to do the same thing I did the day before. The same pointless crap. I know my life was created to be more than this. God would not have poured such passion to run through my restless veins for nothing. I like to be constantly busy. Sometimes I feel my heart will oound right through my chest its beating so hard. I thirst for adventure, crave it. I belong to the wind, my soul is too wild to be held in one place. Why am I so afraid to let it go. I am to terrified of the unknown to just free my spirit and let it be. I want to run with wild horses, surf the waves with dolphines, and discover mountains tops with the eagles.

I say this but do I act upon it?? NO! When a chance comes I am to quiet to held back. I have been hurt so I have built walls but what kind of bull is that? Who hasn’t been hurt?!? why should we build walls because we are too afraid? Bad things happen to everyone. No one gets a get off free card. So why do some of us deam ourselves special enough to build walls. Who loses? We do. We live in fear of living out lives because we don’t want to get hurt. But without hurt we would know no joy or love. I say we all tear down these so called walls. We are called to be a certain way. Not what our peers want us to be or what family wants us to be. So stop pretending to be something we’re not. How about we just be us! And damn to all fears. Lets live our lives one breathless moment at a time. Lets go out with a big bang!!

Fleeting moments in time…

Hayley — Sun, 20 Dec 2009 22:41:25 +0000

Life is full of missed oppurtunities, lost chances, moments in time that could have altered our lives completely and instead of taking advantages we just sit and watch them go by with a simple sigh escaping our lips. Sometimes its because we are to afraid, to shy, not brave enough to grasp that moment and run with it. At a later time we look back and these missed oppurtunities and with a heavy heart we wonder why we let them fly past us…. Why didn’t we jump on and enjoy the ride?

All to often I have sat by while an epic adventure or opurtunity has been burned up and takin away right infront of me. I have prayed for the bravery to take advantage of those fleeting moments… Well I have made the decision to never let fear hold me back again. I want to take every moment and live it as if its my last. Run with what life gives me at full speed. The unknown can be scary, but thats half the adventure, discovering new things. So common life, show me the best you got.

I hate to post things without giving you something to look at. So heres a few photos from a little photo adventure my brother and I went on the other day enjoy.