trust..
Sometimes its hard to know what to do… Sometimes its hard to make the right decision. Today I had to make a decision and it may very well have changed a friendship forever. I can’t say that I regret it. I thought I knew the person and their limits. I had believed them when they said they didn’t do that stuff anymore. So often I hold my tongue and don’t say things because I fear that they wont like it. Today I could do nothing but put my foot down. In all honesty I should have done it a long time ago. My heart aches at the thought that I have lost a friend. I am constantly giving people the benefit of the doubt. But I can’t keep making excuses for people though. I think its good to see the good in people and to be forgiving but we can’t just sugar coat things. I am a big fan of sugar coating. Maybe I need to be tougher… I don;t know. My head throbs and my eyes burn from crying. God is telling me I did the right thing though. Its just a little scary.
Hayley, God’s telling you did the right thing, because you did. Love, being treated the way you have for so long isn’t fair, it just isn’t right. She used to do her advantage. I know her life may be a little bit of a roller coaster right now, but that doesn’t excuse the fact of how she acted. If she really saw how much you do for her she wouldn’t have treated you like that. If she really wanted to become a better Christian, a better person, she would stay away from the things that bring her down. But she didn’t and that’s her choice. She’s the kind of person that throws you around like a rag doll, but enough is enough. When she tries to play that card of how sorry she is once again, hold your ground. Because it’s obvious that she doesn’t really understand what she did.. Remember, “life is good.”
Hayley I just want to make you a promise that I never will act the way she acted, and if I do, then you may hurt me.
I really am blessed to have you in my life and know how close we have become.
Hang in there girl, I’m always here for you if you need anything.